I'm being bummed out again. I can't concentrate! I was doing my homework and next thing you know i'm sad. Mannnn I'm stressed. I feel like crying but something is holding me back. Last night I couldn't sleep, went to bed like at 5. I was really in a depressed mode. I don't know if I'm making it a big deal just cause I'm not going home but I really miss everyone. I miss my comfort zone. I miss Stephany and my other girls and just feeling good when I'm around them. I'm starting to tear now but it's true. My friends are the only ones that made things so much better even though they didn't know I was downing just them being their made me feel good inside again. I miss Des I was always with her on the weekends and I like how our friendship is so open nothing is censored when i'm with her. Well I'm done venting out for now. I got some tears out so I guess I feel a lil better hahaha.
So, this weekend was blah. Been stressing on school kinda. I have a Math quiz this Thursday praying that I do good, cause I really need to step it up! Hopefully I can go through the next 2 months without going crazy :p, but I have a feeling I will haha. I just want school to be over already! Although the thought of not going home during the summer still bother's me BIG TIME! The only thing i'm looking forward to is Lewis coming up to visit. Man, if he wasn't coming I have no idea what the hell I'd be doing this summer!
Oh well, Kirk came up to visit Chris last week. Haha I actually went on the freeway! What a rushhh! The second time I went on was nothing for me, it was like driving on a regular road :p. I made it such a big deal about being scared of going on the freeway but it's alright now. Put me on any freeway I can conquer it! hahaha well... maybe excluding Cali tho, I heard they're CRAZIER then LV people.
Let me start of by celebrating! YAY!!! WOO HOO!!! YIPPI!!! singing: Ugh huh ohhhh yeaa!!! Okey just wanted to let that out. Reason why I'm so happy right now is because it's for sure that Lewis is coming here during the summer. You have no idea how big my smile is right now! My mom was so nervous when she was asking Lewis's parents if they would allow him to come visit. Ha! thank goodness I wasn't asking .
Well on to other things, today was pretty much a typical day for me. Nothing interesting happened today. Only thing thats close to interesting is when Chris and I are entertaining out boring asses or when my mom says things that are so filipino! For that one moment in time I thank God my parents have a sense of humor.
Here's to the girl that is converting her feelingsfrom sadness to anger :) LET IT ALL OUT, you'll feel a lil bit better after you've said everything you need to say. Love you WHORE!!!
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